wicked girls saving ourselves

I only got one WIP, for queer_bigbang, but it's a doozy, so I'm giving you three snippets.

(1)

Grandmother Madeline looms over Emma. "We have no place in our ranks for a perpetual child!"

"I'm grown!" Emma protests. "I can fight!"

"But you will never be an adult!" Grandmother says, a sweeping gesture indicating a giant United States map with pushpins. Seattle, northwest Ohio, southeast Kansas, northwest Montana, southern New Jersey. There's no pattern to the Winchesters' movements. Emma will never find her father. "Look at yourself!" Grandmother says, and Emma is wearing the denim dress that hasn't fit in days. "You are a petulant, sniveling little child who will never be a warrior!"

"I will," Emma says. "Watch me."

(2)

"I have some advice for you, if you're willing to hear it," Barrowman says. "You're young. You're smart. You're pretty. Do something with your life that isn't going to turn you into an ugly corpse."

"My mom wanted me to be an investment banker," Emma says. She thinks of Aunt Charlene, of her people leaving her, and stifles a sob. "I'd rather hunt."

(3)

If he wants to imply that getting fucked is somehow shameful, well then he can just go get fucked himself.

Things I know today that I didn't know yesterday: Emma's MP3 player came with Salim Nourallah's "Don't Be Afraid" (she must have got the same model I did), there are going to be absolute hysterics when Claire figures out about the food additives, my girls are fond of a cappella as well as Florence (note to self, track down work by female a cappella groups), and the Dresden Dolls' "Half Jack" really speaks to Emma.

Things I have written today that I didn't have written yesterday: uh.

TEN THOUSAND WORDS

Nine thousand words and the plot has actually gone somewhere. I should go back and foreshadow the plot ninjas, maybe.

I think I may finally have finished the SHOPPING. Claire and Emma are talking about Emma's aborted adulthood ritual and how to adapt it so Emma can actually do it without getting killed (again) in the process.

Twenty-nine hundred words of shopping. They do need all this crap they're buying, and they do need to have the conversations they're having, but twenty-nine hundred words of shopping.

Serious fucking pacing problem.

Another fourteen hundred words of shopping. Which means twenty-four hundred words of serious pacing problem. Even if Claire and Emma have had several important conversations. And at fifty-four hundred words in to what was planned to be ten thousand words, none of those important conversations involve sexuality, except for the aside that Emma's family isn't from Lesbos (she doesn't think her orientation is any of Claire's business at this stage of their relationship) and the exchange that apparently this 'verse is Dean/Castiel, not that either Dean or Castiel knows this. Nor have the girls discussed gender identity, which I'm beginning to think is Claire's plotline, or would be if Clairestiel were a little more self-aware about that aspect of herself. Zirself. I'll figure it out when Claire does. On the other hand, 'angels are agender/genderqueer/don't grok gender' has rather been done to death, even if it does seem to be a perspective canon is positively inviting, and I like calling Castiel 'she' all the time when writing from inside Claire's head.

'Asexual girl has much sex to figure out whether she's actually asexual' is looking more and more like what's going to be Emma's plotline. It ties in with the action plot, even, given that Emma's an Amazon. Just because they do reproduce once every two years doesn't mean they have to reproduce once every two years, and it wouldn't hurt Emma and Claire any to have a small army. Though then I'd have to either send the wee ones out on their own once their four days of zygote-to-teenager is done or else characterize them, and it might complicate things to characterize them.

But I don't want to write 'asexual girl has a lot of sex in order to get to a point where she feels comfortable identifying as asexual'. I want to write something I'd be comfortable putting on queerlygen. How this comports with seeming to require a romantic plot in order to have the queerness of the characters be relevant at all, let alone to the extent required by queer_bigbang, I'm not sure.

Problems with queer_bigbang premises: probably solved? (poke me if you want on the filter)

So I have been utterly ignoring my queer_bigbang. But now there's less than a month till June 15 when rough drafts are due, and I have a couple problems I want to talk through. To that end: poll!



If I haven't granted you access but you want on to the filter, say 'yes'. If you want to leave it to my discretion whether to filter you in, say 'maybe so'; this will almost certainly translate to 'yes'.

For your help in deciding, the one-sentence summary I just gave queer_bigbang's latest checkin: An asexual girl and a lesbian girl, who happen to be Emma the daughter of Dean Winchester and Claire the daughter of Castiel['s vessel], attempt to save the world (because their fathers are obviously incompetent at it), and meanwhile negotiate a romantic relationship.

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ETA: if you're reading this and you want on the filter, comment; I'm no longer checking the poll.